[li'l vent, but it's uplifting]
Maybe I should try being a little happier.
Sure, I'm piled with schoolwork and projects and just trying to keep my friends happy so much that it stresses me to suicidal rates, but so what? I have them in the first place, so I should be thankful I do. I've got some great friends, who I'm there for and who are there for me. My art's getting a little better, and thanks to a special someone, I'm pretty good at 3D modelling apparently, too. I did well at a recent concert, and I gained some of my friends back as well. Christmas is approaching, the concert's over with, my friends are coming back, there's just so much to be relieved about.
Should I be happier?
I think so. It helps spread off onto others around me (thanks to another special someone for using those words) and it makes me feel nice, having little moments of being carefree and being stress-less. It feels good to not have something to worry about, something that I have to do, something that's constantly in the back of my mind.
It would be nice to have a place where I could go and float infinitely, and just relax my troubles away. It would be a cloud-filled sky, with an unsaturated pinkish color, and bright but not too bright. It would have a warm aura when I'm cold, and a cool aura when I'm too hot. I could float perfectly still and relax, and clear my mind.
...that's getting a little out there, maybe I should be realistic here. I could try laying down in bed late at night when everyone's asleep, and relax then. Nothing would disturb me, and the darkness would be easy to camouflage into.
That's a little more realistic, I should be happy.
I AM happy.